One December 2010

Hurmmm. Today is the day. I wrote this with my hand fully sweat and fully tear's. haha. Joke. Hurmm. Today i'm feeling alone again and again , what should i do today? I don't know. My life is fully fake. Fake smile , Fake Attitude , and I thing everything is fake. oh my GOD. Show me the true way to go. What I want and what I'm really wanna do in this life. Why must I've Been here with in habited lives a thousand questions. Hurm. Show me the way. Where is my ambition? where is my future? hurm I dont want to leave it behind me. I'm always ask myself , what should I do in this world? why I'm always do the wrong thing. Enough it enough. :'( i'm always sad. But no one's know it. Oh... i've got two road in this world and I know that I'm always go with the wrong side. Who can change me? Only myself can do it. I wanna try and try. Find something new with my friends and find the true way to go. My own life like shit. I'm always make some people angry with me. Why must I do that thing? I know thats wrong and I know it can make people think the bad thing come from me. hurmm. I dont thing good. I'm just like a DEVIL. haha. damn. Please someone give me a reason why I'm always think about my fault. hurmm. For someone. I do not want anyone owned, possessed by a god I wish I was alone. hurmmm. think about it. I dont wanna hurt you , not only you but everyone. Im sorry.